Happy Birthday Son

Yesterday was my son Birthday (29 April). Happy 1st Birthday my dear son (Eka Ahmad Rahimi). Felt it was yesterday i deliver him. I still remember the moment at the hospital. Alhamdulillah his growth doing well, his habit eating also good. Before he reach 1 year old, dia sudah pandai jalan-jalan cari pasal. His mommy and daddy keep running after him, afraid if he fell down the floor, penat sehh.

Eka Ahmad Rahimi bin Zambri at his new age (1 yr old)

For this year i didnt' plan any huge celebration for him, just with mommy and daddy je. His grandmother plan to cook nasi kuning this labour day, but not sure yet. My husband and i gave pulut kuning to our officemates saja suka-suka, moga dapat keberkatan. Eka, you're the precious of all and nothing can change you. i will always love you forever...

Suatu Pagi

Bertanya hati di suatu pagi....
di mana harga diri ?
kemana harga diri ?
akal pula berbunyi....
usah ditawan gunung harapan
usah direnang lautan iimpian
sedang hati rapuh bergoyang
bagai angin menyapa lalang...

Tanpa keberanian mimpi tak akan bermakna

I am damn so so happy this few days, dapat contact balik my click when i am studying at UPM sangat-sangatlah gembira hati ini. Actually dia adalah seorang lelaki, tapi bukan boyfriend or ex-boyfriend yer - harap maklum!!, tak sempat pun nak jadi boyfriend saya. He's one of my close friend semasa menempuh alam yang dinamakan remaja. I have plenty of "boyfriends" masa belajar dulu, bukan tak suka kawan dengan girls but at that moment many of my friends yang terdiri di kalangan perempuan banyak songeh and susah sangat nak fix dengan depa.

Bagi memudahkan cerita i name him as Mr. N. Congratulation to Mr. N because his already become a father in early April. Congrat's again. I am happy for you. I still remember all the memories we left behind. Yes i do realized Mr. N have a strange feeling towards me in semester two. But i ignore Mr. N because i don't have any feelings dengan guys at that moment-kononnya nak concertrate study la. yes i do remember kata keramat yang Mr. N selalu ungkapkan padaku iaitu "tanpa keberanian mimpi tak akan bermakna" and Mr. N is brave enough that time to get me, memang berusaha sedaya upaya lah.

The next semester i notice that Mr.N with someone who much better than me and who i am to be close to Mr. N. Saya tak ada kekuatan untuk merampas seseorang dari seseorang dan  Mr. N memang bahagia with that girl. "That girl" pernah jumpa saya and to not be too close to Mr. N.  Our friendship semakin renggang and that time i really miss Mr. N to sit beside me kat dewan kuliah, hang out lunch time, went to library together and all those things we've been doing as a group. I still looking him from far away the happiness Mr. N gone through with the new girl in his life.

Suddenly i realized that i have to find my own life without him, i have to built up my decorations of life alone and cheering up own self ...... really hurt inside. Ada juga try to get along with other boyfriends, tapi tak work out pun.  The last semester i heard rumors that Mr. N had break up with the girl and ada gaks his close friend told me yang dia dah lama sukakan saya. I try to search for him everywhere. But i couldn't find him or maybe we're not meant for each other. From the last semester i lost contact with him untill now... saya jumpa dia kat 7-elevan shah alam (sgt kelakar kan)

Now i had married to someone special in my life and i am glad to be his wife. Mr. N, eventough u and me are not meant to be together but i still care about u as a friend and thank you because of u, i fight for someone and yes is my husband i fight for. Alhamdulillah i am brave to get what i want. "Tanpa keberanian mimpi tak akan bermakna" that word really makes my life change. Alhamdulillah

A Piece of person

i wonder why some peeple keep jelousy about other person life and talk negative about us? is not wrong to 'be jealous with others, with the conditon if u want to be like the person, u have to strive for it. bukan dengan mengata yang bukan-bukan dan memburukkan orang itu pada orang lain. i've got some example which happend in my own life. ada yang tak puas hati kalau hidup kita:

a) More Succes
b) Much Prettier/Handsome and
c) More Rich

For what i realized that most of the catogories which complaining bout other person are women. Isn't true? In life actually women ni suka sibuk story pot pet pot pet hal orang pun. But mostlynya yang seakan tak puas hati sekiranya others click dia lebih sikit.

for me, kehidupan ini ibarat sebuah cerita. Kita sendiri yang perlu mencorakkannya bagi mencantikkan lagi jalan ceritanya. so it's our own responsibility to be successfull or the other side

So for those yang have this habits, these are some tips to be succees in life:

1) Set your goal
2) be reponsibility in whatever situation u are
2) be honest in whatever to do
3) be brave to face the reality
4) make friends with all level
5) "Hidup biarlah berkat" dalam apa jua yang kita lakukan