I am damn so so happy this few days, dapat contact balik my click when i am studying at UPM sangat-sangatlah gembira hati ini. Actually dia adalah seorang lelaki, tapi bukan boyfriend or ex-boyfriend yer - harap maklum!!, tak sempat pun nak jadi boyfriend saya. He's one of my close friend semasa menempuh alam yang dinamakan remaja. I have plenty of "boyfriends" masa belajar dulu, bukan tak suka kawan dengan girls but at that moment many of my friends yang terdiri di kalangan perempuan banyak songeh and susah sangat nak fix dengan depa.
Bagi memudahkan cerita i name him as Mr. N. Congratulation to Mr. N because his already become a father in early April. Congrat's again. I am happy for you. I still remember all the memories we left behind. Yes i do realized Mr. N have a strange feeling towards me in semester two. But i ignore Mr. N because i don't have any feelings dengan guys at that moment-kononnya nak concertrate study la. yes i do remember kata keramat yang Mr. N selalu ungkapkan padaku iaitu "tanpa keberanian mimpi tak akan bermakna" and Mr. N is brave enough that time to get me, memang berusaha sedaya upaya lah.
The next semester i notice that Mr.N with someone who much better than me and who i am to be close to Mr. N. Saya tak ada kekuatan untuk merampas seseorang dari seseorang dan Mr. N memang bahagia with that girl. "That girl" pernah jumpa saya and to not be too close to Mr. N. Our friendship semakin renggang and that time i really miss Mr. N to sit beside me kat dewan kuliah, hang out lunch time, went to library together and all those things we've been doing as a group. I still looking him from far away the happiness Mr. N gone through with the new girl in his life.
Suddenly i realized that i have to find my own life without him, i have to built up my decorations of life alone and cheering up own self ...... really hurt inside. Ada juga try to get along with other boyfriends, tapi tak work out pun. The last semester i heard rumors that Mr. N had break up with the girl and ada gaks his close friend told me yang dia dah lama sukakan saya. I try to search for him everywhere. But i couldn't find him or maybe we're not meant for each other. From the last semester i lost contact with him untill now... saya jumpa dia kat 7-elevan shah alam (sgt kelakar kan)
Now i had married to someone special in my life and i am glad to be his wife. Mr. N, eventough u and me are not meant to be together but i still care about u as a friend and thank you because of u, i fight for someone and yes is my husband i fight for. Alhamdulillah i am brave to get what i want. "Tanpa keberanian mimpi tak akan bermakna" that word really makes my life change. Alhamdulillah
Bagi memudahkan cerita i name him as Mr. N. Congratulation to Mr. N because his already become a father in early April. Congrat's again. I am happy for you. I still remember all the memories we left behind. Yes i do realized Mr. N have a strange feeling towards me in semester two. But i ignore Mr. N because i don't have any feelings dengan guys at that moment-kononnya nak concertrate study la. yes i do remember kata keramat yang Mr. N selalu ungkapkan padaku iaitu "tanpa keberanian mimpi tak akan bermakna" and Mr. N is brave enough that time to get me, memang berusaha sedaya upaya lah.
The next semester i notice that Mr.N with someone who much better than me and who i am to be close to Mr. N. Saya tak ada kekuatan untuk merampas seseorang dari seseorang dan Mr. N memang bahagia with that girl. "That girl" pernah jumpa saya and to not be too close to Mr. N. Our friendship semakin renggang and that time i really miss Mr. N to sit beside me kat dewan kuliah, hang out lunch time, went to library together and all those things we've been doing as a group. I still looking him from far away the happiness Mr. N gone through with the new girl in his life.
Suddenly i realized that i have to find my own life without him, i have to built up my decorations of life alone and cheering up own self ...... really hurt inside. Ada juga try to get along with other boyfriends, tapi tak work out pun. The last semester i heard rumors that Mr. N had break up with the girl and ada gaks his close friend told me yang dia dah lama sukakan saya. I try to search for him everywhere. But i couldn't find him or maybe we're not meant for each other. From the last semester i lost contact with him untill now... saya jumpa dia kat 7-elevan shah alam (sgt kelakar kan)
Now i had married to someone special in my life and i am glad to be his wife. Mr. N, eventough u and me are not meant to be together but i still care about u as a friend and thank you because of u, i fight for someone and yes is my husband i fight for. Alhamdulillah i am brave to get what i want. "Tanpa keberanian mimpi tak akan bermakna" that word really makes my life change. Alhamdulillah
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