Happy Birthday Son

Yesterday was my son Birthday (29 April). Happy 1st Birthday my dear son (Eka Ahmad Rahimi). Felt it was yesterday i deliver him. I still remember the moment at the hospital. Alhamdulillah his growth doing well, his habit eating also good. Before he reach 1 year old, dia sudah pandai jalan-jalan cari pasal. His mommy and daddy keep running after him, afraid if he fell down the floor, penat sehh.

Eka Ahmad Rahimi bin Zambri at his new age (1 yr old)

For this year i didnt' plan any huge celebration for him, just with mommy and daddy je. His grandmother plan to cook nasi kuning this labour day, but not sure yet. My husband and i gave pulut kuning to our officemates saja suka-suka, moga dapat keberkatan. Eka, you're the precious of all and nothing can change you. i will always love you forever...

Suatu Pagi

Bertanya hati di suatu pagi....
di mana harga diri ?
kemana harga diri ?
akal pula berbunyi....
usah ditawan gunung harapan
usah direnang lautan iimpian
sedang hati rapuh bergoyang
bagai angin menyapa lalang...

Tanpa keberanian mimpi tak akan bermakna

I am damn so so happy this few days, dapat contact balik my click when i am studying at UPM sangat-sangatlah gembira hati ini. Actually dia adalah seorang lelaki, tapi bukan boyfriend or ex-boyfriend yer - harap maklum!!, tak sempat pun nak jadi boyfriend saya. He's one of my close friend semasa menempuh alam yang dinamakan remaja. I have plenty of "boyfriends" masa belajar dulu, bukan tak suka kawan dengan girls but at that moment many of my friends yang terdiri di kalangan perempuan banyak songeh and susah sangat nak fix dengan depa.

Bagi memudahkan cerita i name him as Mr. N. Congratulation to Mr. N because his already become a father in early April. Congrat's again. I am happy for you. I still remember all the memories we left behind. Yes i do realized Mr. N have a strange feeling towards me in semester two. But i ignore Mr. N because i don't have any feelings dengan guys at that moment-kononnya nak concertrate study la. yes i do remember kata keramat yang Mr. N selalu ungkapkan padaku iaitu "tanpa keberanian mimpi tak akan bermakna" and Mr. N is brave enough that time to get me, memang berusaha sedaya upaya lah.

The next semester i notice that Mr.N with someone who much better than me and who i am to be close to Mr. N. Saya tak ada kekuatan untuk merampas seseorang dari seseorang dan  Mr. N memang bahagia with that girl. "That girl" pernah jumpa saya and to not be too close to Mr. N.  Our friendship semakin renggang and that time i really miss Mr. N to sit beside me kat dewan kuliah, hang out lunch time, went to library together and all those things we've been doing as a group. I still looking him from far away the happiness Mr. N gone through with the new girl in his life.

Suddenly i realized that i have to find my own life without him, i have to built up my decorations of life alone and cheering up own self ...... really hurt inside. Ada juga try to get along with other boyfriends, tapi tak work out pun.  The last semester i heard rumors that Mr. N had break up with the girl and ada gaks his close friend told me yang dia dah lama sukakan saya. I try to search for him everywhere. But i couldn't find him or maybe we're not meant for each other. From the last semester i lost contact with him untill now... saya jumpa dia kat 7-elevan shah alam (sgt kelakar kan)

Now i had married to someone special in my life and i am glad to be his wife. Mr. N, eventough u and me are not meant to be together but i still care about u as a friend and thank you because of u, i fight for someone and yes is my husband i fight for. Alhamdulillah i am brave to get what i want. "Tanpa keberanian mimpi tak akan bermakna" that word really makes my life change. Alhamdulillah

A Piece of person

i wonder why some peeple keep jelousy about other person life and talk negative about us? is not wrong to 'be jealous with others, with the conditon if u want to be like the person, u have to strive for it. bukan dengan mengata yang bukan-bukan dan memburukkan orang itu pada orang lain. i've got some example which happend in my own life. ada yang tak puas hati kalau hidup kita:

a) More Succes
b) Much Prettier/Handsome and
c) More Rich

For what i realized that most of the catogories which complaining bout other person are women. Isn't true? In life actually women ni suka sibuk story pot pet pot pet hal orang pun. But mostlynya yang seakan tak puas hati sekiranya others click dia lebih sikit.

for me, kehidupan ini ibarat sebuah cerita. Kita sendiri yang perlu mencorakkannya bagi mencantikkan lagi jalan ceritanya. so it's our own responsibility to be successfull or the other side

So for those yang have this habits, these are some tips to be succees in life:

1) Set your goal
2) be reponsibility in whatever situation u are
2) be honest in whatever to do
3) be brave to face the reality
4) make friends with all level
5) "Hidup biarlah berkat" dalam apa jua yang kita lakukan

Baby Boy

After 38 weeks and 2 days, at last my baby was born it’s a boy and we named him EKA AHMAD RAHIMI BIN ZAMBRI. The operation actually 2^th May 2008, but I feel the contraction earlier on 29^th April 2008. Actually I’d plan to deliver normal, but the doctor scanned that my baby is 3.8kg and worry will increase to 4.0kg. The doctor told me it’s really risk to deliver normal because worried the shoulder will stuck and will effect the baby and become disabled. After dicuss with my husband I decided to go for ceaser, but deep inside my heart so sad couldn’t deliver as a normal mother.

Before the operation I didn’t have a chance to see my husband. He was not there while I am going to the operation room. He told me (after arrived at home la) maybe that time had his maghrib prayer. A bit dissapointed la, who knows something would happened kan !! Alhamdulillah the operation success and the first time the doctor shows the baby I just wanted to cry. So touchable that time, hardly can’t believe it’s my baby inside my stomach.

After operation, the doctor told me the baby weight and I was surprised my baby is 3.35kg. How come the doctor scan overweight ? so so sad and a bit dissapointed la. But after all I’m glad that the both of us are safe and will continue the life that been given. Thank You Ya Allah for this precious in life.

Looking to my baby I can’t imagine how he was in my stomach. It’s was really and excitening moment in life. For 9 months I’ve been carrying him to all over the places I go and here he is in my arms. He is so soft, gentle, cute and so much more lah. Hope I have a chance to through this memorable moment again some other time. For those who not yet become a mother, you will through it and yet will love and enjoy the moment in pregnancy and after deliver eventough sometime we feel tired but the happiness will blow away the tiredness.

Happy Birthday to me…

Happy Birthday to you, happy birthday to you happy birthday to erna happy birthday to you. gosh!!! I am 27 getting older year by year. 3 years later going to reach 30. arrghh … life its so short and it’s running faster and faster. I wish I was 17^th he he. It’s nothing interesting about our own birthday’s when we reach this kind of age. We feel scared about the coming new age, the life we have to through, how the future will be and did we get whatever we what in life. So many questions have been in my mind. I do happy and enjoying my life but sometime these question just came when we are alone. I am proud in this new age going to be mother, plan to have lots of children. I just love to be with kids and be their friend, it’s makes me feel comfortable and it worth to spend time with them. Between work and family I prefer family is the most precious thing in life we cannot buy or get as free.

Lazy or tired

This week I’m not in the mood for work. Everyday I woke up felt so lazy for work. When arrived at office, look through the calendar 2008 and counting how many days left for the next holiday. Huh lama lagi tu… wish got more holiday a month…maybe because my body is so tired, it’s hard for me to sleep at night nowadays. The baby inside is so active at night, sometimes when I touch my stomach I can feel my active baby stretching all over I look at my husband and saw he fallen was a sleep in a nice dream I guess !! so it’s just me and my baby waiting for the right time to close my eyes. Try talking with my baby and tell him/her what I feel suddenly. I just don’t know at what time i slept. But it was just a while after a few hours I woke up and don’t know what’s the reason is. Then here goes again and again. Maybe this is the precious moment when you’re pregnant. It’s just you and your baby spending the night together. I will appreciate every single moment with my baby.

The 60s, Family Day

Family Day will be held at 19 January 2008 – 20 January 2008. Actually that date is my birthday. So glad everyone going to celebrate my birthday. But one thing that bothering me is the dinner theme “Tahun 60-an”. What am I going to wear anyway? Huh ! I am pregnant and looking weird that a pregnant women wears that kind of outfit. I am going for 6 months pregnant and but my stomach is not so big. Keep asking my buddies of any idea for the dinner. If not, just wear a pregnant uniform only.........

New Year 2008

I believed that everyone got so much thing that happened this year and it’s will become the memorable moment in our life. No matter the memory happy, sad, weird, tragic, funny etc, 2007 is the journey we’ve been through. For the coming New Year 2008 new book, new journey and new experience. As usual at the end of the year people been thinking what’s the resolution for the new year and for sure the answer will be “I want to be more successful than last year”, have more better life and bla bla bla…. But the strange feeling inside me I am getting older again. huh !! If only I could be young again he he. Before I close my eyes for bedtime I’m wondering what is the life I have to face the next year? Am I tough enough to face it? For this year I want to become a good mommy, have better life, good health and to love my husband more. So hope u guys also had plan what to do for 2008. Happy New New 2008 !!

Pregnancy

love babies stuff....so so cute

it's weekend again!! Saturday, decided to window shopping for babies stuff. firstly went to mid valley, all the boutique from the cheap one to expensive branded i redah je masuk. saje nak tengok-tengok je. For the first time i didn't look at my stuff to buy. Geram je tengok barang-barang babies ni so so cute. For the baby girl there's so much pretty and beautyFULL with much variety of colors . I don't care if my baby a boy or a girl, the most important sihat dan selamat dilahirkan. my husband want to go to "kakimotor", he really damn adore to this car seat recaro brand so pegi la temankan. Confirm he want to buy that one for our baby. Then have a lunch at Tenpayaki's, buy some groceries at jusco then went back home at 8.00 pm

Sunday, went to Subang Parade, actually plan to OU and that area tapi tak larat plak nak gi sana. so as yesterday main masuk every single boutique and shops yang babies stuff/kids stuff which included the toy's r us. got some stuff yang dah aim and akan di beli. kebetulan that time ada audition for Raja Lawak by astro and performance by those AF 5 so we spend time to watch for a while but not so fanatic la, Lepas penat berjalan as usual makan time at nando's which is one of my favorite. Went back home at 6.00 pm, after all we had aim what to buy and not. The next window shopping will be at OU , The Curve and that area. Some stuff i planned to buy online.

great song

Just love this song, the lyric so so cool and touches my heart.... so here goes the song

Once - Aku Mau

Kau boleh acuhkan diriku
Dan anggap ku tak ada
Tapi takkan merubah perasaanku
Kepadamu

Kuyakin pasti suatu saat
Semua kan terjadi
Kau kan mencintaiku
Dan tak akan pernah melepasku

Aku mau mendampingi dirimu
Aku mau cintai kekuranganmu
Selalu bersedia bahagiakanmu
Apapun terjadi
Kujanjikan aku ada

Kau boleh jauhi diriku
Namun kupercaya
Kau kan mencintaiku
Dan tak akan pernah melepasku

Aku mau mendampingi dirimu
Aku mau cintai kekuranganmu
Aku yang rela terluka
Untuk masa lalu

Friendship

Friends

A friend is someone we turn to

when our spirits need a lift.

A friend is someone we treasure

for our friendship is a gift.

A friend is someone who fills our lives

with beauty, joy, and grace.

And makes the whole world we live in

a better and happier place

The Secret Of Living

Make each days a

amagnificient adventure

accept the challenges

that comes your way

seize each oppurturnity

that you find

without concern for

what other might say

live each day as though

it were the last

accomplish all thah

you set out to do

instead of putting

things off for tomorrow

pursure your goal untill

tou see it through

experiance each day

with open arms

savouring both

victory and srive

wlcoming the good and bas together

forr only then will

know the joy of life